Tuesday, June 30, 2009

246 Gloroius Days



I am having a difficult time knowing that in a few weeks Sage would be turning 1 years old. I should be planning a birthday party and not be picking out a headstone. Part of you wants to let Satan win and become a very bitter, mad, pissed off individual. I have decided that this would get me no where fast. Instead I have to constantly look around me and see my many blessings. See the beauty of my Heavenly Fathers plan and cling to the eternal perspective of all of this.

Most babies die from SIDS around 2-4 months old. It is rare for an infant to die from SIDS at 8 months 2 days old though not unheard of. If Sage had passed away at 4 months old it would have been around the holidays and most of the other kids birthdays. This would have been awful for us to bare. Instead he passed away a few months after the holidays. Giving our family many more cherished moments with our little boy!

I think about death alot and wonder would you rather know ahead of time that the person is going to pass away or would you rather have no idea. This is something I will struggle with forever. I watched this video and it broke my heart. Elliot had the same mission as Sage did. They both needed to come to earth and receive their body's and to teach all of those around them. Elliot had to struggle for every breath and eating was even a chore. I think back over Sages life and his life was perfect he only knew what pain felt like a few times. For this I am grateful. I am grateful I did not have to see my baby suffer and struggle. I am grateful for all 246 HEALTHY days I got to spend with Sage on this earth. I am looking forward to his birthday with hope. I am going to celebrate the time we had together. Celebrate his life and celebrate that he made it back home to his loving Heavenly Father and Mother.

8 comments:

Mom2anAngel~and~a miracle said...

I am glad you can celebrate his 1st birthday without the pain that would have consumed many others not as strong as yourself. By all accounts, I know 1st hand how bad it hurts. Milestone days are the absolute worst. I look forward to seeing pictures from Sage's big day and continue to pray that the healing of your family goes smoothly. I appreciate you sharing Sage's story here and love to read updates on your family. (HUGS)

Amanda and John said...

Everyday I am so thankful for the time that we got to spend with Sage. He was a such a joyful, and peaceful baby. When you were around him, and holding him you could not hold anger in your heart. He melted away every worry, fear, and he engulfed your heart with love.

I miss you Sage, and think of you daily. I am so thankful for the 246 days that I got to be here on this Earth with you.

Jessica Caldwell said...

246 days does not seem long enough, however I'm so thankful for those days. I will celebrate his birthday but I don't think I can be strong. I want him here with us eating his first birthday cake and walking around in his new summer birthday clothes. I'm sorry but this just sucks. I love you Crystal and Spencer forever.

Marie said...

What a beautiful video, it really shows how even a short life can be a meaningful life. People may criticize the internet but now Eliot and Sage's names are known all over the world.

Chandy said...

I think celebrating his 1st birthday is a great tribute to his brief life...

He sure did made a great impact on his short time here...

Danielle said...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAGE!

I hope you are celebrating in Heaven this morning.

Crystal and Spencer I will be thinking of you.

Pam said...

Dear Sage's family,

I've been thinking about all of you and Sage today. Thank you for sharing this little guys precious story. His life story and your family has inspired me to try to be a better person, even just little things like being a better visiting teacher and planting a garden.

I hope you are feeling blessed today.

Pam in California

Anonymous said...

Sweetest Sage, I've thought about you all day. Happy Birthday Angel Baby. Look in on your Mama she's missing you badly but doing her best.


Much Love, C.S.