Spencer, Jayden, and I went to my 29 week ultra sound/appointment. Jayden sat on the table next to me and kept giving me hugs and loves during the entire ultra sound. She was in awe of her new baby sister in my belly and kept saying how cute she was. She laughed every time the baby moved. During the ultra sound Jayden looked at me and said MOM....that is not Sage in your tummy....When is Sage being Born again....then she kept repeating over and over again....SAGE IS DEAD MOM? The ultra sound tech lifted the Doppler off my tummy and just began bawling her eyes out. I turned on my side and talked to Jayden about Sage and where he is. I explained that this baby is not Sage and that he will come back later when Jesus comes. It took about 10 minutes to explain things Jayden. I rolled back on my back and the ultra sound tech had tears still rolling down her face. She turned the machine to 3D ultrasound and showed us the baby from every angle possible. She was so nervous and upset that she was literally digging the doppler into my tummy. It hurt so bad. Finally she said is there anything else you want to see? No my belly was hurting! When I got up and was heading out the door she patted me on the back and told me I was an amazing Mother. It made me tear up.
Grief is difficult...you never know when the waves will come crashing down around you. Spencer and me where doing fine and enjoying the moment. When grief struck Jayden. It is moments like these that are difficult for me. It is hard to explain to a 3 year that her baby brother died. It makes no sense to her. I pray that this new baby will help all of my children heal. I am thankful she is a girl so the little ones will see her differently than they saw Sage. Bows and Dresses!
Baby girl is healthy and strong. She is weighing almost 4 pounds give or take a few ounces. Judging from the pictures she looks on the chunky side to me. She is very active and we all look forward to her arrival. A baby that I can love and cuddle on daily and I do not have to give back to the Mother it belongs to. She will belong to me!
I tell myself that God gave my children many gifts - spirit, beauty, intelligence, the capacity to make friends and to inspire respect. There is only one gift he held back - length of life. ` Rose Kennedy
Sage's Life Sketch
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Sage Lawrence Eldredge Memorial Blog
Sage was born to earth on July 17, 2008 and was born into Heaven on March 19, 2009. He died of SUID- Sudden Unexplained Infant Death. We were so blessed to be in the presense of an Angel for 8 months and 2 days. Although his mission on earth was short he has forever Knit our lives together in love. It is our hope that this memorial blog will enable the sweet spirit of one of God's Chosen Son's to continue to teach and touch the lives of all who visit it.
A Tribute To Sage
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What We Believe
A Single Life
By Greg Olson
"Making the decision to have a child-it's momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body." -Elizabeth Stone
The Prophet Joseph Smith States
"The Lord takes many away even in infancy, that they may escape the envy of man, and the sorrows and evils of this present world; they were to pure, to lovely, to live on earth; therefore if rightly considered, instead of mourning we have reason to rejoice as they are delivered from evil, and we shall soon have them again."
He further explained:
"All children are redeemed by the Blood of Jesus Christ, and the moment that children leave this world, they are taken to the bosom of Abraham."
"Time Heals All Wounds"
It has been said, "Time Heals all wounds." I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone. `Rose Kennedy
Blessed by his father, Spencer Eldgredge, on October 12, 2008
Sage Lawrence Eldredge
July 17, 2008 - March 19, 2009
Sage's Name In The Sand
Written in the sand by Great Aunt Tamra & Great Uncle Jim in Rocky Point, Mexico
Something To Think About
A wife who loses a husband is called a widow. A husband who loses a wife is called a widower. A child who loses his parents is called an orphan. But...there is no word for a parent who loses a child, that's how awful the loss is! - Neugeboren 1976, 154