Thursday, April 9, 2009

Happy Easter Sage and Uncle Kenny!

Spencer and I spent most our day running errands. While we were driving around Spencer asked me if I wanted to go to the Cemetery? Yes was my reply. When I got there all of the flowers from the funeral were dead and blown all over the place. This bothered me something terrible. I felt that he had only been gone 3 weeks today and that I had already failed as a Mother to do something for him. I left the Cemetery in tears. Spencer being the Husband that I love dearly, drove me straight to the JoAnn's and told me to buy something for Sage and that he would take me back to the Cemetery. I decided that he needed some type of headstone until, Uncle Kenny's got replaced and Sage's headstone gets ordered. When we left the 2nd time it was easier because, I felt like I did something to take care of my baby. I pray daily for Sage and I know that he is where the Lord needs him to be and that he is watching over all of us. I want to Celebrate Easter with cheer and have joy in my heart! Sage because of what our Savior Jesus Christ did for us, I know that Daddy and I will get to be with you again someday! Families truly are forever! Love You Through Eternity!


Michelle said...

what a beautiful thing to do & a nice way to share Easter with Kenny & Sage. it was when i clicked on the picture that i could see their names actually spelled out with the eggs. we often stop by my grandfather's grave and although the visits have grown less over the years - not because we miss him less or don't care anymore, but because over time we feel more confident that he's not truly there, he's with Jesus - we still always feel the need to make "his area" more special & beautiful than all the rest.

something that helped me during the first holidays (Christmas, Easter, Thanksgiving, etc.) without him was to light a candle. our first holiday without him was Thanksgiving, so i got a little turkey candle and put it on his plate at his place at the table - it made it feel MUCH less empty. the idea of staring at that empty place just gutted me, and that really helped somehow.

praying for peace for your family as you approach Easter with your little guy up above. i won't pretend to understand what you're going through... just know i'll be praying you through every day, especially Easter. :-)

- michelle

Rose Haven said...

We continue praying for all of you!

You left his grave-site looking so pretty...perfect for him.

May the Joy of the Lord fill you this EASTER...and become REAL in your life...just as you desire.


bp said...

This is such a sweet thing to do for your sweet boy. My heart is praying for you this weekend.

Belle's Blog said...

Praying for you and the family. I'm positive that little Sage was smiling at all those eggs! He knows how much you love him! God bless you!

Amanda and John said...

I can promise you that you are not a bad mother. You are not even in the same realm.

I know that Sage is truly in the arms of our Heavenly Father. I know it doesn't make it better, but this is what I know as truth.

I love you and Spencer so much, and I pray that I knew the words to comfort you. All I know how to do is love you.

I love you guys!

peachytiffers said...

It looks so beautiful! You're the best mommy I know!

Tamra and Jim said...

Crystal, you are an awesome mom and Spencer an awesome dad. Sage is so lucky to be part of your family. The decorations on the grave are so special. What a neat idea to do that. May God continue to bless you and give you strength.

Shelley said...

When I lost my baby girl, I determined that with God's help I would do my best to remember her with joy instead of grief. You are doing such a beautiful job of celebrating Sage's life even through your tears. I think of you and pray for you every day. I pray peace upon your heart, and send you big hugs.

Ma and Pa said...

You probably don't know me but we were in the same ward when we lived on ASU East campus. You gave a dress to Amanda Briggs and it didn't fit her so she gave it to me. So I have known you just by name but always thought highly of you because of Amanda.

After reading many of your posts I am just amazed at what a wonderful mother you are.

I hope that you are able to feel the comfort from the prayers that are given for you and your family.

I just wanted you to know that even though we have never met I think of you and yours. And you are in our prayers.

tiff_andersen said...

I recommend you read the Christmas Box. It is one of the most spiritual best books i have read. it has a lot to do with the spirt of christmas. and the meaning. I think you and your family would really enjoy it. I also have fallen in love with Sage. He seems so close but so far away.