Prayer, I have always prayed to my Father in Heaven and have always felt his loving arms around me. The loss of our dear Sweet little baby Sage has been overwhelming. I have so many emotions surging through me. It is hard to figure out what one you should try to grasp onto first. My need to stop and Pray is what helps me the most. To stop and Thank my Father in Heaven for "ALL" of my many blessings. Couples Prayer is what is helping Spencer and I get through our days and nights.
I feel that my family has been through an EARTHQUAKE. That now we have been placed at a fork in our road and we can choose to go left and walk that path alone in our grief and heartbreak or we can choose to go right. Choosing right means not having to walk this path alone. I keep pleading with my Father In Heaven to not leave our family alone on this path but to carry us. I do not know what we would have done if we did not have the knowledge of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. What would I have done with out the knowledge of the plan of salvation. I had never been so happy and comforted than knowing that we had been Sealed together as a family for Time and all Eternity. What peace and comfort that gave me. I know that this was Heavenly Fathers plan for me and my family as hard as it is. My life is in his hands, his time and his will for me. I pray I can be an instrument in his hands to carry on. I know that my little Man is in the loving arms of his Father in Heaven and that he is with his Savior Jesus Christ. If I could see through the Veil of Heaven and earth I would see that I too am being wrapped and carried as well.
I got some sleep last night which was good. I find Spencer and me both roaming the hallways of our home checking on the other children. I know we could not have changed Heavenly Father's Will for us that night. Checking on the other children now sorta helps us.
Montana Trip Part I
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