Wayne and Sage

I still can't bring myself to say Sage "died" or "passed away" or "we lost our little boy to SIDS". I have to make some sorta joke out of this to help ease the pain. So I joke around and say Sage "moved on to bigger and better things". Anyways, for months after wards, I could not bring myself to even look at pictures of Sage. It was too painful. I found that I would look at the pictures of his funeral over and over and over again. I think that helped me to accept the fact that my beautiful and happy, little baby boy had indeed moved on to do bigger and better things for our loving Heavenly Father. The Lord needed him to do something bigger and better than what he could do down here. It is so hard to accept sometimes that my baby is no longer with me. I just continue to pray for comfort and peace. The Lord needed him more than we did. I have felt prompted many times that it was just his time to go.

A few weeks ago I started looking at his pictures and was remembering the best times I have ever had on earth. A month before Sage moved on to bigger and better things, I told my Mom that I felt so blessed. That I truly did have Heaven on earth within the walls of my own home. That I was so happy and so thankful for all the Lord had blessed me with. I have decided to start posting pictures of our life with him. So that I will not forget the memories that I have had with my little man. I miss him dearly this hurts so bad.

Last September I took these pictures of Sage. I wanted to remember just how chunky he was! I wanted pictures of his little naked body! I am so thankful that I have these pictures of him. The white blanket is my wedding quilt that my Grandma Leone made for Spencer and I. The blue blanket is the one we took him home in. It said "Thank Heaven for little boys". The blue and white blanket was his blessing afghan that his Grandma Reidhead had made for him. Sage discovered his hands that day and it was so hard to keep him from sticking his hands in his mouth!

 
These are some of my favorite pictures of Wayne and Sage together. Wayne has a soft spot for babies and Sage was his favorite baby! Wayne sat and pulled faces the entire time at Sage. I miss these moments in time.